____I hurt myself today , to see if I still feel   !  I focus on the pain,the only thing that's real . The needle tears a hole , the old familiar sting , try to kill it all away . But I remember everything , what have I become ?  My sweetest friend ,  everyone I know , goes away in the end , and you could have it all . My empire of dirt .  I will let you down .  I will make you hurt . 
___Beneath the stains of time , the feelings disappear , you are someone else .   I am still right here  , and you could have it all ,  my empire of dirt . I will let you down  .  I will make you hurt  .   If i  could start again
a million miles away . I would keep myself . I would find a way , away....i woud find away .........